today. i. feel. defeated.
i just stood outside in cold grey watching my breath crumble as i hollered for armani to come inside. he was having a pissing match with the neighbor's dog (who was running loose, as always). normally, i find it endearing that my 15 lb. fluff ball of a dog tries to stand his ground against sheep dogs and labradors much larger than he. today, not so much.
i felt invisible and ignored by my own dog.
i felt invisible and ignored by my own dog.
my eyes feel hot and unsteady.
my hands incapable. my strength inadequate.
my hands incapable. my strength inadequate.
and my tooth aches.
i feel like i am watching others succeed while i sit on my hands.
i can't seem to get it together.
i am sucking at life.
i wish the sun would come out.
i'll feel better tomorrow.
