24 May 2010

it's a...

BOY, Oh BOY!!!

Close your eyes,
Have no fear,
The monsters gone,
He's on the run and your daddy's here,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Before you go to sleep,
Say a little prayer,
Every day in every way,
It's getting better and better,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Out on the ocean sailing away,
I can hardly wait,
To see you to come of age,
But I guess we'll both,
Just have to be patient,
Yes it's a long way to go,
But in the meantime,

Before you cross the street,
Take my hand,
Life is just what happens to you,
While your busy making other plans,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy

-John Lennon

11 May 2010

oh the suspense!!!

ooooh, baby!

(at 16 weeks, 4 days)

(a pastel sketch to pass the time)

sunday was my first mother's day.
i can't even express how tremendous
my heart felt everytime someone simply reminded me.

i did get some very sweet cards
and a lovely hand knit pot holder.



what do you think?
i'm thinking a boy...

07 May 2010

sometimes i take my tilt shift to south america but don't post anything for 9 months.

like these from Ecuador, for example. here is La Cienega:


to see more photos from our trip last august...
check out paul's blog.

05 May 2010

what kind of soul are you?

we are on vacation...and it is quite nice
here at the beach.

but i do not have a sandy-footed soul.

i don't resonate with the beach.
it doesn't call for me but once or twice a year.
my soul isn't shaded by palms or walled in by waves
and shifty dunes.
there aren't seagulls sweeping overhead or
wicker furniture in the breeze room of my innermost.
i'm not one to wear shark teeth and puka shells tied to my ankle.

but i do love it here.
it's easy to appreciate the ocean:
the darkness
the vastness
the power 
the restraint
the life within
the treasures down deep in its belly

the breeze is weightless
and feels like flying.
everything is laced with salt,
enough to make my laboriously straightened locks 
tell the truth and show their messy curls.

my face is sun kissed and 
hopefully my feet will take me home to the hills
a little smoother.

i'm really not sure what kind of soul i have living in my chest.
i'll let you know should i ever find out.

what about you?

04 May 2010


i've been gone for awhile.
i wouldn't be surprised if this doesn't reach anyone at all.
if this blog were a garden, i suppose it'd look something
like the bamboo that has choked out my grandmother's circle of roses beside the driveway of our soon-to-be new old home.

i'm feeling restored now.
these days, i have more and more energy and less and less blah.
these early months of baby making has left me drained.
the onset of all the tremendous change coming our way has had me feeling raw
and chopped off at the roots.
but i am grounded again...
and the grass is lovely and plush,
spongy and green,
like an inviting bed.

i feel, deep down, i was made to artistically create.
lately, there hasn't been a whole lot of that going on.
no silver, no stones, no illustrating...
or quilting or sewing or painting
or ANY of the things i figured i would have mastered by now.
a few sketches every now and then, a few words
when something won't let me rest.
and that's it.
typically, when it comes to "getting it out" -
putting my heart down that is -
i like to do things quickly.
see results instantly.
very childlike, i know.
patience has eluded me
and creative motivation fallen flat.

of course, it doesn't hurt that all my supplies are packed neatly away in storage as we await the completion of renovations on our house.

but i still feel the pulse.
saturday, paul and i stopped by a fabulous handmade market 
in north carolina on our way to the beach.
there were so many talented artists there doing their thing.
and in my depths, a twinge.
THIS IS FOR ME...still.
though i don't know what it looks like yet.
the beautiful jj was there with her table of jewels.
it was such an inspiration to finally meet her...
such a captivating person
(with talent out the wazoo)!

i'm not in school anymore - breathe.

i think i can do this - still.

right now though, 
i am taking the time i need, my body needs,
to create thee absolute best thing that could 
possibly ever come from my life.
our baby.
and there is no shame in that.
and while it feels like i'm standing still at the moment,
everything is actually happening incredibly fast.
life is unfolding while i type this...
and that, my friends, is some kind of divine art.